Amazing

12 weeks and 3 days....here's proof.

A perfect little bony body. 10 fingers with the thumb occasionally heading for the little mouth, lots of vertebrae (always fascinates me how clear the spine is!), all the right bones in legs and arms, a brain, a sweet nose, 2 knees, 2 elbows, A STRONG HEARTBEAT (159bpm), a very very active somersaulting little baby who seems to like laying on his/her tummy (like me...for now!).

Oh the relief...again.

I cried...again...happy tears.

I didn't realise how anxious I still was inside about trusting this pregnancy.

I've just realised that I probably have post-traumatic stress about pregnancy and wonder how many other millions of women around the world carry the same burden.

But since 2.45pm yesterday, I have felt lighter than I have in maybe 15 months.

I didn't know I carried a tight ball of heaviness but now I know because the difference I feel is almost palpable.

I look at this amazing photo everytime I go to the fridge and feel such awe.

It's real. It's really real. There is a live baby growing perfectly in my tummy.

Amazing.