A Gift Come True

Well, it's happened...my anniversary gift of having another baby is about to happen. I did a test this morning and we are 5 weeks pregnant with our third child...YAY! Very excited, rather quietly but happily so. I have had a feeling for the last 4 or 5 days that I was and I hoped all along for conception this month (an October baby)...any earlier felt too early, any later was approaching Christmas...this is perfect. I dreamed it and my dream has come true. Tony is stoked and proud. Hungover as he is today, he couldn't wipe the smile off his face! He joked that he is deliberately hungover today (and rather badly too) so he can empathise with me in the coming weeks if (when?!) I suffer morning sickness. I've been super-understanding and nice in the hope that he can do that for me too. That is honestly my only fear about this whole thing. The birth doesn't worry me, the baby itself doesn't worry me too much (I know it will be challenging but I had a big revelation in my heart at work a few weeks ago that I love babies and I love toddlers and a third child isn't just 'a third child', it's a whole new person to adore and love as we do the current two). But the morning sickness, well, the thought fills me with trepidation and fear because I remember only too well how it feels and it can't be any easier at all with 2 little kids to look after! I explained to Michael earlier that we found out today that I have a baby in my tummy and making a baby can be rather hard work for the body, so I might be tired and maybe grumpy and feeling sick for a little while. I might even be sick in the toilet, I told him. He took it all in, then said "oh no, but I hope you don't spew the baby up from your tummy!" so we had a chat about how the baby's in a special little pocket behind my bellybutton. Later on he brought it up again and told me he can't wait to teach the baby cricket and footy...my sweet sweet boy, he's so lovely!
So much to think about now, so much on my mind...wow! Pregnant. Huge to digest. YAY!